Friday, August 27, 2010

I'm Not Calling You A Liar; Just Don't Lie To Me

"I thought I loved you. I truly did.

I could write a never-ending list of your positive traits. Defend you against all who tried to bring you down.  I knew your worth; at least, I told myself I did. But after awhile, the negative words of others just stuck. Insecurity and doubt seeped in and my perception of you changed. I believed them instead of you. They broke you down and so I broke down at your side.

So I lied.

I didn't love you the way I meant to. I couldn't love you the way I tried.

But now?

I know better.

You aren't a victim. You aren't entitled. You are human, guided by fear. What you have is choice. You owe nothing to anyone but yourself, and you choose how others affect you. You can choose to fight fear.

Let them try to hurt you. You cannot be touched, unless you allow it.

Knowing what I know now, and knowing who you can be, I can honestly say that I love you and who you are.

And I'm not alone."

If you wrote a letter to yourself, would it look anything like mine?

Have you learned what I've learned?

Friday, August 6, 2010

Always Felt Like I Was Outside, Looking In On You

There's something to be said about dredging up the past
Looking it square in the eye
Deciphering the codes and unravelling the knots.

Some say it's the only way to free yourself;
lift the weight.

Others believe it's pointless;
Focusing on negatives instead of concentrating on a happy future.

What do I think?

I agree with both.

Sometimes in order to understand your present self,
you need to look back
at mistakes
at successes
at the path your head, heart, soul and body have taken you.

Live, learn, grow,

And with that knowledge in hand,
you can move forward
with a clear picture of what makes you happy.

Focus is everything; so is perspective.

They are easily lost in the white noise,
but re-gained when you learn to love who you are.

Easily said, difficult to do
to be sure.

I still have a lot to learn.