Wednesday, November 24, 2010

The Desert Is The Same On The Other Side

Do you ever think about what your life might be like
if you had never met a certain person?
It might be anyone.
Imagine how, if they had never existed in your world,
your circumstances may be completely different than they are now.

I know this is a pointless thought.
We can't truly know how subtracting certain variables in our lives might change the end results.
But still... I think about it.

Realizing that I could say the words
"I wish I never met you"
to someone, and actually mean it?
It floored me.

And, to be honest, it made me extremely sad.

But the facts don't lie, even when we lie to ourselves.
If the negative influences,
bad experiences,
and emotional distress
outweigh all the positive, beautiful things that a person has brought to our lives...
Then it's difficult not to feel this way.

Still, we have no control of the past, only the future.
So beware the arrogant and self-serving.
They'll never stop to care about how they affect you.

As for you - don't assume.
Don't assume you know who I speak of.
Because maybe...

I wish I never met you.

But there's not a damn thing I can do about it.

6 comments:

ghost said...

i don't know that your life would be one bit different had we not met, but i'm glad we did.

TS said...

Me too! :)

Anonymous said...

I hope it isn't me. That's an awful feeling.

TS said...

Which feeling? Knowing someone wishes they never met you, or knowing you wish you never met someone?

And it surely can't be you, this person has a name. ;)

Anonymous said...

Both, now that you mention it. I originally meant that realizing you wish you never knew someone, especially if they were important, would be awful. But knowing someone wished they never met you would be horrible as well. Which is why I do hope it isn't me, anonymous or not.

TS said...

Yeah, both feel pretty damn shitty. And both probably could've been avoided, but people make mistakes and screw up. Live 'n learn, eh anon?